Written by R.K. June 2019
"I am no stranger to traumatic experiences. I have vivid memories from age 3 when my Mother passed away unexpectedly. By age 4 I was having reoccurring nightmares and crying myself to sleep. I was sexually abused between age 4 and 8 by a male teenage baby sitter. I would dream that I was being held hostage at gun point on my plaid couch with orange carpet in the family living room. I would dream of escaping and running to the nearest river the St. Clair river and jumping in a holding my breath staying out of sight until my abuser lost sight of me. In grade school and high school, I hid my trauma well. It was all pent up inside me while I lived in total dysfunction around alcoholics and addicts. I was never good enough for the people I wanted to be proud of me. I couldn’t do anything right and if the shit hit the fan it was always my fault. There was no such thing as counseling or massage therapy for trauma victims in the 70’s and 80’s. In the 90’s I went to college and got a degree in teaching. I married an abusive alcoholic and started to repeat the patterns that I grew up with. Within 15 years I was divorced with 2 young children and no support. I built a house and got a master’s degree in guidance counseling.
Despite my best efforts the trauma I experienced as a child kept rearing its ugly head. As I tried to advocate for students and parents who were also experiencing trauma, I began to take on the burdens of my own friends, family and acquaintances. There was no support for those people either and my magic wand didn’t work for myself or others. In 2010 I had the whooping cough which medical professionals were not ready to recognize the severity of the comeback of the illness. I spent a year trying to regain strength and ability to breath. In 2012 I was diagnosed with stage 3 grade 3 infiltrating ductal carcinoma. I went through over 10 surgical procedures and whole year of chemotherapy to find out I had a secondary form of cancer that needed to be treated as well. All the while from 2000 to 2015 I was able to get massage as supplemental care along with counseling to help me through my hardest physical, emotional, personal, and spiritual battles. In all honesty massage therapy has saved my life more than once and when in crisis I would suggest massage therapy to anyone as a safe way to experience a healthy life style. I ended up trying to continue to work on and off for the next 3 years and officially medically retired from teaching and guidance counseling in 2015.
I became a certified massage therapist and now I help other people through traumatic experiences by providing massage therapy and teaching them how to find balance in their lives. I also teach adults who are becoming certified massage therapists. This is my way of paying it forward to people who have been in crisis and need a hand up. I have provided many free massage sessions over the years to people in need. I look forward to being a part of any foundation that will advocate for people to get their needs met so they can be happy, healthy, safe, and successful in their future endeavors. "
Written by L.M.J. June 20/20
My journey to healing started about 3 years ago….but was actually a long time coming before that. Little did I know, reconnecting with an old Friend,(Anna) who I had known for years, would lead me to the journey I am on now. When first starting out in her massage schooling, Anna and I would trade services. She’d do energy healing/massage and I would in turn do her hair. She helped me and I would help her.
It was at that time in my life that I started to feel profoundly different. Our paths reconnected for a reason…that reason I now know was to help me heal from past traumas I endured as a child. She gave me the strength and push I needed to continue my journey on my own. I still have miles to go and set backs are more common then I would like but I can say, at this time in my life, I am exactly where I need to be. I am more confident, happy, and complety magical. I am The person I needed to remember….the person I know was in there hidden for so long. I have been able to release years of various abuse and trauma, to forgive and heal and grow into the person I am.
Sometimes people come along for a reason, we need to listen to ourselves more, if we do and allow this journey to begin, all sorts of magical shit can happen. Its not easy but so worth it in the end. Thank you Anna. With out your subtle push and “practice” Sessions, I may have never realized my gifts or true potential and what I bring to the table. ~LMJ